I was an amazing child. Just ask my grandmother.
I was blessed with an incredibly supportive, loving (and enormous) family. My every undertaking was met with thunderous applause and the assurance that the world was a better place because I existed.
This unconditional recognition of my greatness, combined with a sheltered lifestyle, led me to be a very self assured child and teenager. I knew exactly who I was and where I was going. I knew everything.
As I got older, this assurance led me to try everything, with the certainty that I could not fail...and I rarely did. I had an unquestioning faith in my ability to succeed.
Enter the "real" world.
After I struck out on my own to make my way in the world, I was bombarded with information, opinions and other people's perceptions of me. I still had the love of my family, but was no longer sheltered from the rest of the world. My previous impressions of people and the world at large as a wide open benevolent community no longer held true.
There was so much to learn. So many things I had accepted as truth that I now began to question. I found the pursuit of knowledge thrilling, the volume of information and opinions in the world was so exciting! However, I was lacking one crucial skill... Well, maybe two. The ability to take all that information and figure out what parts of it applied to me, and what parts of it I should discard...and knowing who to trust.
So here I am at 35 with a good amount of skills and information, a wide eyed optimism and enthusiasm for most everyone I meet, but no direction. Thus, the reason for this blog.
My hope is to use this blog as a sounding board. I'd like it to be a tool to help me sort out my ideas of myself, my enviornment, and my purpose...and, oh, yeah..
I'd like to once again be able to recognize my own greatness ;)
Hugs and Smooches,
Belle
Hey there!
ReplyDeleteI was just doing random searches and came across your blog. I don’t know if it’s going into mid 30’s that bring us to the very conclusion you are writing about, what are we here for? What should I be doing? I’ve pondered that question pretty darn hard this past year. I can relate in the ability to execute ideas in my head, I even go on and make little prototypes of my ideas, but after executing it once, I don’t know, I’m already bored. Or maybe lazy, tired? I don’t have any answers for you, I just understand where you are coming from.
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